What do you think of these lyrics? MCR style??... "Death Bed"???

That is depressing, but I would have to hear it being performed with vocal lyrics and music to be able to judge it for real. Did someone close to you die and you want to die too to be with them?? That is what I am getting from these lyrics or maybe am totally not getting it? My husband ped away 8 months ago and sometimes I feel like that, but I have to live on because he would want it that way and take care of our daughter.